My thoughts on attraction

Was reading a comic and I suddenly wondered do friends really discuss about relationships? Like do they discuss who they actually attracted to? If they are not found out they won't say it out do they? I mean it really feels really personal. Talking about something that is not even confirmed. Maybe you truly like the person but what if the person doesn't like you at all? Once you say it out doesn't it feel like you really want to be in the relationship with the person and imposing your feelings on a person with friends is like a burden to the person you like. What if the one you like prefers not to have a open relationship then again is that healthy? I think out of all the people I've been attracted to. out of the numbers I only openly discuss 3 due to circumstances and curiosity of friends. I never discuss my attraction till I fell out of it but i never really said it out really clearly either its like i will never tell who i liked but i described the process and feelings i had, occasions i had. I hate to expose that side of me because I find that it's a weakness. It's scary. I think I'm mentally not ready for a relationship, I guess. Though I'm already like what going I be a quarter of a century. Maybe the right one hasn't come? Maybe it had but it was too early? So you people believe in there's a soulmate? I don't think I do after going thru the attractions and relationship stuff. Maybe I'm just deluded now. Yes, I am strongly attracted to someone right now, but I think I would discuss it with anyone. However, the person I'm attracted seems to know it's always the circumstances but I rather not be open. I'm actually obvious if you actually know who is it.